I'm currently without my laptop & had an overwhelming urge to blog. Luckily, tonight I discovered that there is now a blogger app! :)
I had big plans about starting 2012 feeling really positive and working hard to overcome my problems but I think it was too much pressure because my anxiety increased. So now I'm just focusing on how I can implement small positive changes into my life. Small changes which hopefully will make a big difference.
The first one is starting a gratitude diary/journal. I used to do this when I was attending psychology sessions but I suppose I done it because it was homework rather than I done it because it helped so I never really benefited from it.
The plan is: at the end of each night I'm going to list 5 things from each day which I'm grateful for and at the end of the week, I will blog the top 5 things.
According to Dr Martin seligman, the founder of the positive psychology movement, writing down things which are good in your life each week, will enable you to feel happier & less depressed. So here's hoping!
This weeks 5 things I'm grateful for are:
1. My house - I moan all the time about the effort it takes to do everything in the house and never having the money to decorate or fix things but I do always manage and eventually I get the money to do the things I want. It's a great distraction too since there's always something that needs doing. I love my house, it really is beginning to feel homely & safe.
2. My family - I often take them for granted - as we all do - but I couldn't Cope without them and they help me in so many different ways. I may moan about them & they may piss me off a lot but I really do love them so much!
3. My health - I often doubt my health & often assume the worst or constantly think there's something serious wrong with me - all part of anxiety I suppose - but the fact is I'm young and I am healthy!
4. Anxiety free days - life seems a million times easier, I get so much done & I feel I can accomplish anything! I see the positive side of things and I believe I can get better. These days are the best!
5. My ability to learn - I've made huge progress with my driving and have now been told that if I can get my anxiety under control I will pass my test with no problems. I now believe in myself and my driving ability and have proved to myself that with willpower I can learn new things. Things that seemed so difficult in the beginning I can eventually do without even giving it a second thought.
